Unfinished draft, Iāll look at it later!
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The System was stunned as well. It seemed to want to say something, yet didnāt know what to say. [Host...]
Shen Tang just let out a soft laugh. "No need to rush to explain. I knowāyou bound yourself to me for the sake of an experiment too."
Her voice was very soft, as if it would be blown away by the wind in the next second, yet it was piercingly clear, as though it had seen through many things. "Even though I donāt know why you helped me so much, even went so far as to rebel against the Main System for me, after all this time, Iāve slowly come to understand a lot."
"From the moment I was born, Iāve never known who my parents were. Even when I tried to search for information about them when I was little, those so-called parents were like they didnāt exist in this world at all, leaving no trace of information behind."
"I do have nineteen yearsā worth of memories from a previous life. In my recollections there were clearly familiar friends and so many experiences, yet for some reason, whenever I tried to think about them carefully, those memories felt both clear and blurry. No matter how I tried, I couldnāt recall many details. It was like watching someone elseās movieāso familiar yet so foreign to me, to the point that it filled me with an indescribable fear..."
"I suddenly realized that all those past memories might be fake, just information someone implanted into this brain of mine, just like with that No. 3 experimental subjectāthinking they were real memories when they were all false..."
"It suddenly made sense. Turns out, I am that No. 2 experimental subject."
"Why donāt I have parents? Because my memories were fake to begin with. Since theyāre just irrelevant fabricated memories, of course the simpler the better. Only by removing the closest blood ties would they be less likely to be exposed."
She gave a self-mocking smile. "So when you first bound yourself to me, System, I wasnāt some lucky one-in-a-million chosen one at all, and it wasnāt any sudden death from staying up late. Iām just like Shen Qingli and that No. 3 experimental subjectāweāre nothing but lab rats in a laboratory."
"That so-called āoriginal plotā is just another stretch of fake memory, right? Set up with the variables of heroine and side heroine, forcing them to slaughter each other according to different life scripts... What kind of satisfying answer is this experiment trying to achieve, exactly?"
Shen Tang slowly said a lot. The System was so shocked it couldnāt utter a word. So she had already figured it all out.
A System that by program design shouldnāt have emotions was now crying even harder. [IāI never wanted to harm the host, wuwuwu. A lot of programs were set by the Main System before, I had no way to resist them, and no permission to know they were violations. But I really did want to help the host...]
Hearing it cry so sadly, Shen Tang could only smile helplessly. Instead, she had to turn around and comfort it. "Itās okay, I donāt blame you."
The System didnāt have a physical body, but Shen Tangās spiritual power seemed to fall upon that cluster of nothingnessāthose illusory data in her sea of consciousness. She gently patted it and said sincerely, "What I want to say is, thank you for always staying by my side. Even though you can be pretty noisy sometimes, and Iāve secretly complained about you in my heart, Iām really grateful to you."
"Thank you for walking this road with me."
"From the beginning to the end, and also for staying with me as I walk this last stretch."
[Awooo, host, I donāt want to leave you.] The System cried even more miserably. It didnāt know what to do. The hostās Life Value had completely dropped to the limit of the red line, but it could only watch her vitality ebb away, unable to stop her.
Shen Tang looked up at the sky again. Death on the battlefield continued without pause. Lu Xiao and the others were desperately fighting against the Alien Star army, but in the end, they were at the end of their strength. If one personās life could be traded for victory on the battlefield and the survival of millions, would that be a worthwhile deal?
Of course, it would be worth it.
Her gaze was firm and burning, carrying a relieved smile. "If my existence was created from the very beginning, if I was never meant to exist in this world at all, then tell me, Systemāshouldnāt I at least leave behind something meaningful so this trip wonāt have been in vain?"
[Host, donāt do anything stupid!]
She shook her head. "Iām not doing anything stupid. Iām thinking very clearly. You know Iām someone who clings to life and fears death. Iām very clear on what Iām doing right now."
"I donāt want to be an experimental subject controlled by some invisible big hand. I have things I truly want to do, and I have a true meaning to my existenceānot just the meaning of being an experimental subject."