Mid-December, a restaurant in Seoul.
After running the âDesolate Gardenâ dungeon, I set a dinner with Ryu Taeyoung. The same-day plan got shot down, but once we aligned our schedules, we managed to meet within a few days.
He wasnât in his usual field gearâhe sat across from me in a neat, tidy suit as we waited for the food.
âItâs been a while.â
âYeah.â
I stared at the menus on the wall, then asked what I was genuinely curious about.
âBy the way, if I pay for this, is that illegal for you?â
Wasnât there a rule about under thirty thousand won? I turned my gaze to him and wiped my hands with the wet towel.
The place we picked was a Korean restaurant near the Special Response Team HQ. The prices werenât high, but ordering a few dishes could easily push past thirty thousand.
He let out an awkward cough, sounding thrown by my question.
â...Pardon? No. I assumed Iâd be the one paying.â
âOh...â
What the hell. Then Iâd be the guy who called a government worker off-hours for help, snuck into a Gate, ghosted his messagesâand still mooched a meal off him?
'Huh... could happen.'
Itâs not like heâd lure me out with food and try something shady.
âSo me letting you buy me dinner isnât against any law?â
âNo...â
'Didnât know that.'
A moment later, steaming seaweed soup and side dishes were set in front of us.
I stirred the soup with my spoon to cool it, then poured in some water.
âDo you prefer things bland?â
âNo?â
âThen why add water...?â
âOh, I canât handle hot stuff.â
Watching me water down my soup, he went ahead and mixed rice into his.
I took a sip and thought about how to broach the topic.
âDid you catch the Infinite Guild master?â
â......â
He froze at the blunt question, set his spoon down, and lowered his head, voice dropping.
â...Not yet. Weâre working on it, but...â
âI see.â
Fair enough. The Special Response Teamâs to-do list isnât short, and at this point the manhunt could shift over to the police detectives anyway, right?
I nodded like it was nothing, and he glanced up at me like he was gauging my reaction.
âYou must be anxious. Iâm sorry.â
âIâm not particularly anxious. Iâve got multiple layers of security at home.â
âEven so, you canât ignore the psychological factor.â
Psychological? Honestly, the billion won I put up to rescue Do Yehyun going up in smokeâthat stung. But the Infinite Guild kidnapping also led me to that quest-type dungeon, so it wasnât entirely a shit deal.
Of course it wouldâve been better not to be kidnapped. Thinking about being tied to a chair for half a day still riled me up.
'And not just tied up, those bastardsâwhat they did to my face...'
Just thinking about it made my mood sour again.
However he read my expression, he watched me for a moment and said,
âMaybe youâre fine now, but it could set into a trauma. Certain environments could trigger the memories.â
If weâre tallying trauma, Im Haekyungâs mind control ranks higher than those Infinite Guild punks. And the weird part was, it wasnât even creepy, and it didnât feel like my mind was being ripped away. That made it more unsettling.
If a personâs mental bulwark crumbles, youâd expect revulsion. But I just blacked out and woke up feeling... a little too normal.
'Annoying as hell.'
I reined in the tangent and answered evenly.
âI dunno... feels more likely that going into dungeons every day would traumatize you.â
Between getting grabbed and smacked around by thugs and slaughtering freakish monsters daily, the latterâs obviously worse for your mental health.
'Everyoneâs lost all objectivity, probably because this is their daily view.'
He shut his mouth at that.
I came to talk, but the quiet did make it easier to eat. I kept waiting for him to speak again, but he stayed silent.
âRight. Thanks for your help that time.â
âSorry? No need to thank me. Itâs my job.â
âIt wasnât during your work hours.â
âMy work hours start the moment a citizen calls something in...â
He lifted the corners of his mouth in a stiff smile. He was trying to look friendly, but with his build and features, it just looked stiff.
âYou really are suited to being a public official.â
I meant it. His reaction, though, was oddly unenthused.
âIs that so...â
Why? Heâs not from a guild, not from the Association... Whatever. At this point, Special Response Team public servants are pretty much people doing it out of duty, no? Given his personality, thatâs high praise.
He cleared his throat and, out of nowhere, asked,
âMr. Jehyun.â
âYeah?â
âHow did you feel when you entered dungeons?â
How did I feel...? What kind of question is that. It changes with the dungeon, obviously.
Strange. A little fun, too.
He kept quiet for a beat, then spoke like heâd made up his mind.
âIâll apologize in advance if this sounds rude. But since youâve been inside dungeons ranked above your Awakening level far more often than most... youâre the only one I can ask.â
âAh.â
Ah... So he wanted the headspace of someone punching above their weight in dungeons.
If youâre a B-rank, I guess youâd be curious. I thought back to stepping into a dungeon for the first timeâhow was it? That unfamiliar sensation, witnessing a place like that even existed... a bit of excitement, and at the same time the vivid sense of death edging up close.
âPeople die easier than you think.â
â......â
âDungeon accidents are common, but compared to the early days, the systemâs better. People treat it like just another everyday event now, so they donât really feel it. But... people die really easily.â
Guilds, the Associationâeverythingâs more organized now, and high-rank dungeons are special cases handled by high-rank hunters. So âhunter deathsâ arenât as common as youâd think.
But that depends on your baseline. Originally, one death wouldâve been a huge deal. For me, the world turned upside down overnightâso thereâs a lot that strikes me as bizarre.
'Honestly, itâs kind of fun.'
Feels like the worldâs ethics got fuzzier. Maybe they were never that sharp. Now, âbecause hunterâ keeps carving out exceptions in the law.
âIâm a low-rank hunter, so Iâve had more close calls. I just got luckyâthere were S-rank and A-rank hunters next to me.â
â......â
âIâm not even a support hunter. Iâm just lucky to be wedged in. Still... I do wish I were a bit stronger. Rank or skills.â
Even now, my body canât keep upâthatâs the problem. For the record, when I burned my mana dry mimicking to help Seowon, I went home and passed out cold.
'If I were C-rank, things would be way easier.'
While I drifted for a moment, Ryuâwho had gone quiet againâfinally said,
âI think that way too. That I might be... incompetent.â
âCome again?â
What is he on about. Did the B-ranks all pop the same pills, from Seowon to Ryu? Thereâs an E-rank sitting right here and a B-rank hunter is talking incompetence?
Still, Iâm gracious and kind by nature, so I shut up and let him talk nonsense.
âIâm not disparaging myself in front of you, Mr. Jehyun. I just keep thinkingâif I were more capable, maybe things would be easier.â
âDid something happen?â
Why is his self-esteem suddenly in pieces?
Heâs a by-the-book guy. Even if something shook him, he shouldâve just... processed it. So something did happen?
He flinched at my question.
I came to ask about Na Seokgyungâs whereabouts and the investigationâs progress, and now Iâm neck-deep in weird talk.
Even so, since he helped me, Iâd developed a personal liking for himâI didnât mind listening. And I was curious what could knock him this far off-center.
He hesitated, set his spoon down, and spoke calmly.
âIâve never really been scared in dungeons. I may fall short of S-rankers and A-rankers, but Iâm still capable of saving people. But as captain of a special response team, I assemble the roster... andââ
âYeah.â
â...I hate saying this, but I keep quantifying huntersâ â đđšđŻđđ„đąđ đĄđ â abilities and... value. Thinking âthey canât die here,â and pulling them back.â
âMm.â
âIf I were a little more capable, I could just handle more myself. Thatâs whatâs been on my mind.â
Ah... that kind of dilemma. I immediately lost interest and poked at my rice. He watched me turn my eyes to the bowl.
What do you call someone who agonizes about ethics while doing the obvious right thing? I twitched my eyebrow, debating whether to say something comforting.
Then he brought up something interesting.
âDo you know anything about the Cheonmyeong Cult?â