I silently pulled her into an embrace and comforted her.
What Hilda truly wanted wasnât worldly honor, but small everyday happiness with me. She no longer cared for hollow glory and said present reality mattered more than past desires.
Actually, I felt the same.
I pursued practical benefits over honor, but Hilda was more precious than any practical benefit.
But because weâre nobles, we canât help being bound by appearances.
Sometimes they become a shackle.
"I want to lie in this rose garden like this, chatting about daily life, making light jokes and teasing each other, and dreaming about the future of our children to be born in Feuzen."
"Children. I hope they come soon."
"Thatâs why you work so hard every night, right? Iâm looking forward to it."
"Mm, youâre not just looking forward to children, right?"
At my mischievous joke, Hilda giggled and leaned even closer to me.
Yeah, this ordinary daily life is the greatest happiness.
The world doesnât end just because you lose a tournament.
So, letâs not feel pressured.
"How did you feel when I defeated the Knights commander?"
"It was so satisfying! If Betty (Elisabeth) hadnât stopped me, I almost threw my cup."
It wouldâve been entertaining if sheâd thrown the cup and cracked the commanderâs skull. Hilda shuddered, saying sheâd nearly lost her composure when the Imperial Knights commander hit on her. She hadnât expected him to pull such a shameless stunt.
Because of that, the commanderâs reputation among noblewomen was now at rock bottom.
Huh? Iâd thought there would be noblewomen who pitied him for being so pathetic.
Instead, with Hildaâwhoâd secured the victorâs honorâat the center, public opinion condemning the commander had become dominant, and he lost both honor and trust. As expected, the victorâs voice carries the farthest.
While chatting intimately with Hilda, I became even more determined. She said she no longer wanted honor and told me not to overdo it, but isnât wanting to win all the more because of that just a manâs nature?
After spending the night together, the final day of the individual competition arrived. As expected, Hildaâs embrace was the best. I didnât exert myself, wanting to maintain top condition. I simply reconfirmed that her embrace had become my sanctuary.
Only the last match remained.
I got to briefly talk with Wilhelm before the round 6 jousting match. Maybe because it was the final, but the proceedings took longer than expected. Court clergy who hadnât shown their faces until now were performing religious rites in the middle of the arena.
Oh Lord. Grant me glorious victory. Alleluia!
Could I win just by praying like this?
"I watched your match with great interest, my lord."
"I donât know what the great freelancer thought of it."
"Hahaha, youâre modest. I feel nervous for the first time in a while."
Nervous, my footâthereâs no match for you except my father-in-law.
"The Steinhof knight I faced yesterday tooâI didnât know the Duchy of Beren had such skilled young talent. Especially when the Lord of Feuzenâs reputation has reached even Munich."
Bavaria was a duchy east of the Duchy of Beren, a massive power representing southern Germany along with the Grand Duchy of Austria. It was interesting that my reputation had spread that far.
"Iâm fortunate to end my jousting career against the Lord of Feuzen. Please do your best. This old knight wonât go down easily."
"Iâm prepared. The glory of victory will be my wifeâs."
"Iâve noticed it before, but you really do love your wife."
Wilhelm seemed unable to relate. Nobles usually preferred taking lovers rather than falling in love with their legitimate wives. Legitimate wives were merely tools for producing heirs. Sadly, that was the typical reality of medieval noble marriages. Genuine love between spouses was uncommon.
Hildaâs and my marriage was essentially an arranged one on the surface as well. Weâd first met at a banquet hall, and Hilda, whoâd immediately weighed the benefits and various advantages of the match, became interested in me. Our marriage happened because Hildaâs standards were clearly different from those of ordinary noblewomen.
But Iâd fallen for Hilda at first sight, and Hilda came to love me because I truly respected her without deception. So I can confidently say our meeting was fate. Wilhelm, whoâd been married four times, might not understand, but we were living happily.
"Good luck, my lord."
"Iâll do my best, Sir Terese."
I watched Wilhelmâs back as he turned away.
I got the feeling his gait was slightly off.
We stood at opposite ends of the jousting field after the court clergy withdrew. My condition and physical state were very good, similar to yesterdayâs. So I prayed silently that I could hold out long enough to drag this into a war of attrition.
"Bereit!"
Hilda said she no longer wanted honor.
But once youâve drawn the sword, you have to cut something, right?
Iâd just do my best so Iâd have no regrets.
I lowered the helmet visor and fixed my gaze on Wilhelm ahead.
"Anfang!"
I charged on Mont Blanc. Though our time together had been short, I considered this snow-white companion my best partner. Our bond had only grown stronger through jousting against formidable opponents in the tournament.
I drew closer and closer to Wilhelm.
My condition and physical state were still good.
But the moment we collided, I understood.
Crack!
Thud!
I took a tremendous impact that felt like it would pierce clean through to my back.
Not falling off from that blow alone was a victory of sheer endurance and the medical service. If this had been before the fight with the Knights commander, I wouldâve toppled off in the blink of an eye. Chills ran across my entire body.
Could I keep enduring this and drag it into a long battle?
My lance had also hammered Wilhelmâs shield and made his upper body sway, but he didnât fall off. He leisurely took his position at the end of the jousting field. While swapping in a new lance, I caught my breath. For today, Iâd sent Oscar to the Steinhof weapons factory to buy up all the spare lances.
About 60 or so.
Having committed to the long battle strategy, that many lances would be consumed.
Having plenty of ammunition stocked felt reassuring.
"Argh!"
Nothing for it.
I just had to grit my teeth and endure.
Wilhelm never missed by accident. He always hit his mark. In contrast, by the fifth pass, Iâd landed three strikes and missed twice. Advanced techniques like Fielâs subtle center-of-gravity shifts were beyond my current abilities, so I had no choice but to tough it out.
Crack!
We collided up to the seventh pass. My whole body ached. But I desperately tried not to lose concentration. The medical serviceâs effects seemed to be wearing off, but as the eighth pass came, I could gradually feel itâWilhelmâs attack intensity seemed to weaken just slightly.
And at the tenth pass, my lance found Wilhelmâs center of gravity and struck it squarely. The first truly effective hit. Until then, my attacks had only made his upper body sway slightly, never shaking him this violently. Wilhelm barely held on and turned around at the end of the jousting field.
Seeing that, I was certain.
The long battle was clearly taking its toll on him.
Just hold out a bit more!
Before I knew it, weâd reached the twelfth collision.
The result of enduring relentlessly, again and again.
Crack!
When I struck Wilhelmâs shield, I definitely felt a solid impact in my hand. No doubtâthis one had landed clean. Unless you trusted your condition and recklessly endured as I had, it would be hard for the older Wilhelm to hold on. I believed that, butâ
"Damn it!"
The one who fell off was me. Getting overconfident and thinking the long battle was paying off turned out to be the fatal mistake. Hit by Wilhelmâs lance, I toppled backward without a chance to react. And my only thought in that moment was to break my fall. Plenty of knights had died from landing headfirst after a botched dismount.
Fortunately, Iâd devoted as much attention to breakfall training as to wrestling, so I landed safely on my back and lifted my head as much as possible. But the impact, compounded by the weight of the armor, was anything but light.
Lying there like that, I could see the sky through the gaps in my helmet visor.
Iâd felt the same thing when I fell off against the Grand Dukeâs Guard commanderâit was more peaceful than youâd expect.
The sounds around me seemed to have vanished entirely.
"Lord Wolfgang! Are you alright?"
Until Ted and Oscar came running, it was utterly quiet.
"Phew, Iâm fine. Help me up. The long battle was useless in the end."
Ted and Oscar exchanged puzzled looks at my bitter words. Sensing something was off, I turned around with their support and discovered that Wilhelm had fallen off too.
Huh? Had we fallen off simultaneously?
Waaah!
Only then could I hear the cheers echoing through the arena.